[Neoma]

I can't remember a time since reaching puberty when I didn't want to have breasts.  I did for a brief period wonder what it would like to be female but other than that I've always wanted to be male but have breasts then back in 2021 I started to do some research and I stumbled across this forum where I found a whole host of information which has proved to be useful in achieving my dream and on 15th January 2022 I started my journey and I perhaps should have waited as this day is also memorable for the wrong reasons too, such as, I was driving back from a customer site and a truck decided to drive into my car whilst I was on the motorway, then my girlfriend, who I'd bought a house with, decided to cheat on me (Although I found that out a few weeks later.  None the less, I got home (after the accident, I thought it best to start when I was at home and not driving just in case) and started with my first dose of PM, 350mg, along with Vit D3 and calcium, I also measured myself and took some photos so I had something to compare myself with later on.

The first thing that I realised after taking the first capsule was that I started to feel a bit nauseous and light headed.  It wasn't unpleasant, it was just odd.

My measurements were:

Underband = 36"
'Bust' = 38.5"
Areola = 15mm 
Weight = 79KG

   
This is my before picture

   
And the measurements of my areola

I started to notice changes quite quickly and on 24th January 2022 I measured my bust and it was 39.75" but my areola and underbust remained the same.  I wasn't expecting anything that quickly.

After getting to a certain point my growth plateaued and I decided to rethink my strategy.  I asked myself what did I actually want?  Yes, I wanted breasts, but I realised I wanted small breasts, something like an A or AA cup and I really wanted to bud so towards the end of February I started to use a progesterone cream from Wellsprings-Health.  It was at this point I came home to find my partner in bed with her 'friend'.  It broke me completely and I was stuck with a dilemma, am I mentally stable enough to continue, should I stop?  But then again, I was now officially single, I have no one to tell me I looked stupid or be disappointed in me and I would be doing this for me and no one could take that away.  I decided to continue no matter what.  

Around June 2022 my mental health deteriorated, what with being cheated on, finding out that my ex had cheated on me the day of the accident in January and suffering from PTSD from a previous relationship where I was a victim of domestic abuse, I tried to take my own life.  At that point I decided to seek help from my Doctor, I told him everything including taking hormones and growing breasts.  He was very good, prescribed me anti-depressants but said he was unable to offer help in undergoing a partial transition but would monitor other aspects of my health to make sure I wasn't doing other damage, which was fair enough.

[Neoma]

Around June 2022 I started using bi-est 2.5 cream in addition to the progesterone, I have no idea what caused the change but one early morning in July 2022, I was laying in bed, just having a feel to see what if any progress I'd been making and I suddenly realised, where I previously had a 'donut' around my nipple area, it was now more solid, I had budded.  It was small, maybe a CM in size, but it was definitely a bud, I was so excited I tried to get out of bed too quickly and got caught up in the duvet.  After composing myself, I looked in the mirror and noticed my nipples were bigger, my areola was darker and I certainly had some more shape to my breasts.  I took a photo to compare against my first photo.  Size wise, there isn't much difference, but there is a huge difference around the nipple area.

   
July 2022

Around this time I tried to get rid of my chest hair, I tried to shave but that led to ingrowing hairs, so I bought an epilator (That right there separates the adults from the children, first use it really hurts, subsequent uses aren't as bad though) but even that didn't slow down growth so I went back to shaving until I could find something else.

At the end of July I got in contact with a friend I'd known since I was 11, we hadn't spoken for a while so I told her everything that had happened, so told me to pack a case and come down for the week, so I ended up having a holiday and a break from everything (My house was on the market and so many things needed to be resolved).  I told her about my breasts and it turned out her son transitioned from MtF a few years previously so totally understood.  It was a breath of fresh air being able to talk to someone about everything without being judged.

In August 2022 I took some more photos and measurements

   
August 2022

   
August 2022 areola

I'd actually lost an inch on my underband, gained on my bust and areola were 5mm bigger.  I'd also lost a lot of weight but that could have been due to depression.

Underband = 35"
'Bust' = 40.5"
Areola = 20mm 
Weight = 75KG


At this time I was still on progesterone, bi-est cream, calcium and Vitamin D3.  I'd also supplemented this for a few months with PM capsules, because, why not.

[Neoma]

So, this brings me to today, 1 year and 3 months since I started my journey.  I'm still taking progesterone and was trying to source estrogen patches but getting them in the UK without prescription is impossible, no doctor in the UK wants to help unless you are undergoing a full transition and InHousePharmacy is out of stock of patches, but I'll get there, there's no rush.  In the meantime I've ordered Progynova 2mg and will take those until patches become available.

My friend and I have become very close now and have started a relationship.  She's bisexual so really loves my "brand new tits" as she calls them and showed me just how sensitive they are, she can make me orgasm just by playing with them.

As far as my bust size goes, it now measures 41.5" and I wear a 38AA or 36A bra.  I tried without wearing a bra at first but what I found was, especially when I'm driving, my nipples are so sensitive.  Mens polo shirts are slightly rougher than female clothes, the slightest bump is distracting.  My partner bought me some female sports crops first and they are great if I don't want my bra to be visible, other than that I like sports bras, especially Nike, but for those special occasions, I've found littlewomen to be a great source of A, AA and AAA bras up to 42"

   
April 2023

You might have noticed I also have my nipples pierced now, so worth it as it gives heightened pleasure to every touch.  You might also notice that my St Christopher has changed.  My partner bought me a new one that was more feminine that my previous one.

   
My areola haven't grown much but my nipples have, although that could be down to the piercing.

In order to remove my chest hair, I've now started to use a Braun IPL.  It actually works so I've got limited hair on my chest, under arms and groin.  Still needs a few more treatments but it feels so nice now.  My legs were never hairy to begin with so I just moisturise those.  I've been to the spa a few times, had a pedicure and have my toe nails painted, so in private I'm very feminine but happy, in public however most of it is very well hidden, apart from my finger nails...I've been biting them since I was small, but one day I looked at my partners daughters nails and thought "I want some of those" and decided to grow them, but most of the time I just have a clear diamond coating on them so they don't stand out too much.  

Don't get me wrong, I'm not afraid of people finding out I have breasts, my close friends and colleagues know (hell, I flashed them in Vegas as someone asked to see my piercings), but I don't want it to become a distraction to anyone when I'm working, I'm still the same guy they've always known me to be, but in private I am Neoma, which means New Moon, because after a what was a pretty bad beginning to last year, my life has been turned around, I am happy again once more, just with breasts.

[Gabrielle]

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im glad your old friend/new partner is excepting of you. It is worrying how people might react to that kind of news. But as you where friends , it looks like she has. The only thing i can say for me, is that i feel my penis might have shrunk for me. So that is something to consider.
I wonder what your dosage and regime is currently then? Where did you get the bi-est 2.5 cream and the progesterone?

[Neoma]

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I've been keeping an eye on things "down there" since I started, no adverse effects just yet, I've played it very safe using mostly creams rather than tablets, but thank you for reminding me to check regularly, it is very important to check for any black lines etc and stop immediately if there are any causes for concern.

I bought the bi-est 2.5 cream from Amazon US and had it imported.  Can't buy it from .co.uk but can from .com, which is so annoying but at least it's a work around if a little expensive, it contains E2 and E3 estrogen, normally one pump per dose.  The progesterone I bought from wellsprings-health dot com, they call it their Serenity Cream, this you'd need 1/8 to 1/4 of a teaspoon and no more.  I'd apply both to one breast in the morning, then the other in the evening, then the next morning my face and work in rotation.  I know it's working when my breast tissue becomes tender.  Sometimes I'll take a break for a week to give my body a rest.

[Neoma]

Received these babies from Inhousepharmacy:  

   

They are genuine, manufactured by Bayer.

After taking the first one I felt pleasantly high, but sadly it wore off and that night my hands and feet felt tingly, however this stopped the next day.  There have been no other side effects (phew).

Not expecting much change initially, instead I'm hoping these will kick start some more growth until my Estradot patches arrive.  I'm taking them with progesterone cream (Obviously rubbing the cream into my skin and not dipping the tablets in the cream and swallowing).

Inhousepharmacy are very good, very reliable and friendly so if anyone else is hesitant about ordering from them, there's no need to worry.

[Owllee]

HI, I hope you are well.

I know how hard it is to find reliable information about all this stuff...and good luck with the medical studies.

A lot of people here have been where you are one way or another and if you read through the posts you may be as surprised as I was to find so many ways to walk the same path, divergent though it sometimes is.

There is great reluctance to pass on anything resembling medical advice except...."no...dont do it...stop"...which is the most obvious.

I have encountered many unpleasant side effects from various HRT items the worst being inflammation which can make your hands swell...your breathing difficult...your joints ache and a loss of muscle strength.

Also alarming was a growing sense of dread...and agency...witchcraft began making perfect sense to me. Everything seemed animated in a possibly diablical way. This feeling has only become less annoying over the past couple years...but it never goes away.

I also had bad physical side effects from PM so I may just be very sensitive.

I also had no intention of "transitioning" but I dont think I understood what that meant. Physical and mental tranistioning is not social transitioning. It all takes courage and commitment...and I wonder if you can reverse it once it starts. 

Also seldom mentioned is the role genetics plays in this. If you come from a small breasted people as I do...good luck....although they are uncommonly lovely in general so I never noticed before. 

Anyway, good luck. Never forget the warning in Steppenwolf:..."MAGIC THEATER. ENTRANCE NOT FOR EVERYBODY. FOR MADMEN ONLY!"

Best
Owlie

[mick151970]

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I'm curious what side effect you had from PM and how much were you takin?